“So where are we going?”
That question kept her thinking. She knew she had to answer that someday. She peeked within, searching for clues. But, it seemed that her inner voice was no help.
“I don’t know where are we going. All I can speak for is where we stand now. We’re at a place in our lives where vulnerability connects us and binds us strong. We’re at a place where we can find safety in each other. We’re at a place where talking about anything under the earth to each other, feels comfortable. We’re at a place where life has come to make us best friends.”
“Sure, we’re best friends” he responded, “but do you think that’s all?”
It had been months. He was looking for an answer, patiently, prudently. Hoping that someday she’d reciprocate what he felt for her.
“No, I don’t think that’s all. I know you like me and so do I. It’s out in the open.”
“So what’s stopping us?” he asked.
“I am scared you know. I am at this crossroads – one direction tells me to step back and lose you. The other direction asks me to go ahead and lose you. And, I am not ready to lose you. Are you getting what I am trying to say?”
“Go ahead!” he nodded.
“You see, now I can’t go back and tell myself I will be okay even if you decide to walk without me. But, I am not sure if I am ready to take that step ahead and walk along with you, love you. I am a difficult person to be with. I may be willing to work this out but sometimes, I tend to run away from things, even the things I love the most. That’s one thing I can’t change about me. That’s one thing out of my control. And, I am afraid that will sabotage you. Are you willing to embrace that difficulty?” her thoughts had a taste of concern.
Silence caught them off guard.
“Honestly, that’s something I have to think about too. But, I know I’ve liked you for long. And, now I know I’ve started loving you,” he could no longer hold on.
A feeling of reverence surged within her. She was happy but her eyes chose to tear up.
“If you never feel anything for me, I have to be prepared to let you go. There’s only so much I can do. I can give you my all but if you never happen to feel the same I have to move on. But, I have a feeling that we can work on building something beautiful if we are willing to…”
“Not that I don’t feel the same,” she cut him short. “I just maybe need a little more time.”
“Sure, you have it, but let me know before we run out of time.”